I am not much of a New Years resolution maker but I have been known to make a “to do list” for the year from time to time. Most of the times when I review my list, I have ended up checking either one or none of the items on the list. This is because we make a resolutions list and forget about them as the year goes on. So in Jan 2020, I didn’t make any list but wrote below poem.
This new year, find a way of life,
Be driven but pause, find a way of life,
Don’t get caught in the web of stress,
take a break, find a way of life,
Look after yourself and your family,
Find a way of life,
Prioritize your health, live in the moment,
Find your way of life,
Wish for many more New Years in your life,
But if this is the last, find your way of life,
Live the life you really want, find your way of life.
Looking back through the year, I wonder if I truly lived by this poem. I can say for a fact that I was driven but paused to see where I was headed and if it made sense. I did get caught up in the web of stress at work but realized when it happened. Did I look after my family? I believe I did. It was tough during the spring and summer months when we were all working and learning from home. I had stressful projects in the spring and summer time and had meetings most of the day. But we managed. My husband and I swapped break times so we could give attention to our kid. While cooking lunch, we involved her so she could learn essential cooking skills instead of giving her screen time. She did get more screen time than usual during those months but it was still monitored. We played games with her, pretend play, went for walks and my husband also taught her bicycling. So, I would say from family perspective it has been a very good year.
Regarding health, I have to say I didn’t prioritize my health. Especially mental health. I experienced anxiety while going for grocery shopping, traveling in bus and just walking outside. I am sure I am not alone in this and that many people felt the same. I tackled my anxiety by getting more familiar with Covid-19 precautions, prepped before going anywhere to make sure I had a mask and hand sanitizer at all times. When we travelled in bus, I would make sure my family and I sanitized hands after getting on and off the bus. I called these safety steps that we all had to follow if outside. I never carried sanitizer with me before this year and now it’s a staple in my bag.
Did I live in the moment..hmm…I am not sure. I live in the moment when I pretend play with my kid but otherwise my mind is always churning. My husband calls my mind a grinder that never stops..lol.
Did I feel like I lived a life I want this year? I believe I did. I also understood myself a bit more. My self confidence increased a bit more and I am closer to the next step in my career.
Cheers to more New Years to come.
A Very Happy New Year to you and your family.